favorite books

Post Traumatic

Sisters Of The Yam

No Longer Human

currently reading

If They Come In The Morning

Of Blood And Bones

Black Ivy

shrines

last update: 02/20/2024

Sheena Ringo

Sheena Ringo ( 椎名林檎, Shiina Ringo)

Is a Japanese singer, songwriter and musician. She is also the founder and lead vocalist of the band Tokyo Jihen.

I'm reminded of the countless times her music has been my soundtrack for prominent times in my life. Sheena's ability to blend raw emotion with musical brilliance is truly unmatched.

Tokyo Jihen

Tokyo Jihen ; Tokyo Incidents

MEMBERS

Favorite Albums

Spotify Mix

Whether it's the unique lyrics or the fearless experimentation in her sound, she has a way of making her music feel like a personal connection.

Black Girl Coming Of Age

Black Girl Coming Of Age Cinema

This is a very important passion of mine, considering i did not get to see alot of movies with women who looked like me and had the same experiences as me growing up i take great pride sharing this list, and hope to share it with my kids one day.

A Deep Dive; Honey Trap

Honeytrap delves into the life of a Trinidad and Tobago girl, As she grapples with the complexities of adolescence, she falls in with the wrong crowd, ultimately becoming groomed and manipulated by an older man. Tragically, she finds herself coerced into a situation where she becomes an unwitting participant in the orchestrated killing of a boy who is in-love with her

Coming from Trinidad, ( and me as well ) an underdeveloped and potentially dangerous island, she faces the stark contrast between her origins and her new surroundings. This stark transition highlights the challenges many immigrants encounter, grappling with issues of belonging, identity, and societal expectations.

Against a backdrop of economic disparities, the protagonist grapples with assimilation pressures, resorting to stealing her mother's clothes and changing her accent to fit in. The film starkly illustrates the vulnerability of individuals under peer influence, emphasizing the lengths one may go to for acceptance.

Honeytrap" vividly explores the complex interplay between cultural identity and self-perception. The protagonist's choices reflect the internal conflicts immigrants often face, juggling their heritage with the desire to assimilate. The film serves as a poignant commentary on cultural identity amid societal expectations and adversity.

Favorites From List

Letterboxd List

QUOTES

same bitch that wanna smile in your face, be the same bitch that's gonna come for you later
Zola (2014)

are you afraid of death?
no.
why?
because i think its beautiful
Swarm (2023)

i am not broken. i am free.
Pariah (2011)

Psychological Anime

Watched Recently

Feburary
15 February 2024
Embracing Growing Pains; Navigating The Struggle Of Personal Development
lately i've been feeling really weird, caught in the struggle before a life upgrade: my intense focus on self improvement has made socializing a challenge its like i've outgrown my past versions, but tangible results are hard to achieve ---> its like leveling up in a video game and im forced to repeat the level again. now i have a choice; perpetual frustration or embracing chaos for continuous evolution and inner peace.

Intellectualization
Anxiety ----> nuanced dimension
my anxiety has become heightened during this self - evolution process, this is a great transformative reflection. i can use it as a tool for understanding rather than putting up a barrier.
Childhood Trauma Intersection
Navigating my journey becomes a process of not only shedding old versions but healing scars ( figuratively and literal )
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Blog/Website Ideas
Music:

Music Curation
   - Spotify, Soundcloud and Youtube
   - character playlist curations ---> book & movie characters
   - Types of relationships
   - Scents, Smells, Visions
   - Based on books ---> famous figures
  Music Blog; Artist deep dive
   - Talk about; History of the artist/band
   - Knowledge beforehand
   - Timeline of popularity
   - Who inspired them‍
Shrines
   - Sheena Ringo / Tokyo Incidents
   - Sagittarius
   - Jazz Fusion
   - Black Feminism
   - Gothic Style
Janurary
26 Janurary 2024
Lets Talk About It!!
- How energy flows and where our attention goes
- How beautiful love languages are
- The differences between love, attraction and lust
- Writing letters - The importance of journaling
- Being venerable around the right people
- Hand made gifts - The everyone is you theory
- How judging and downplaying others is simply protection
- How manifestation actually works
- The importance of hitting rock bottom
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Identity is not a fixed, singular label, your identity changed depending how you see yourself at any given moment. it shifts and evolves with each passing second.

Imagine your identity as a river: while a river twists and turns in many ways it generally flows in one direction similarly your identity can vary in different aspects f your life but still has an overall direction - @peathefairy
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09 janurary 2024
December
19 december 2023
‍CORE VALUES:
- always seeking to evolve
- be most authentic self
- minding my business
- respect and boundaries
- regulating emotions in a healthy way
Good Habits To Expand My Personal Taste
- Find the edges: Find the things outside of my taste
- Focus on what happens when i bring trying new things that are not common together with my current journey
(having taste is more than just curated consumerism)
- have high standards about everything; you make how you think & what you notice
- craft my point of view with a well formed opinion
> why do i like things?
> how does it relate to me?
> why does it make me feel that way?
> do i appreciate it or not?‍
02 december 2023
Articles I Want To Read
- how being bullied effects ur adulthood / kate baggaley
- the assimilationist or; the unexpected cost of passing as a trans woman / emily st. james
- the long distant friendship guide
- why aren't woman offered relief?
- consider the nipple / olivia craighead
- bombing controversy / olivia craighead
- the millennial vernacular of fat foiba
New Things I Want To Try
- necklace making -> the gothic ring ones
- clay decorations
- herbalism -> MORE SERIOUS
- sewing and patching
- alternative medicine
- fire magick

The Witch (2015)

dir: robert eggers

Get ready for a wild ride with this movie! Despite my usual aversion to 1600s dramas, I was completely captivated by the setting. Against all odds, this film had me enthralled from the very beginning! And let's talk about the dialogue - refreshingly clear and easy to follow, which is a rare find in historical flicks.

Now, let's dive into the visual experience - the bold colors and striking contrasts were like a feast for the eyes! The clever interweaving of modern-day family dynamics with the haunting atmosphere of the past was simply mind-blowing. And can we take a moment to appreciate the subtle exploration of complex mother-daughter relationships?

I may be reading in too much into it, but it added a depth that caught me by surprise. Also fuck them kids . But let me tell you, this movie had me shouting at the screen in awe.

It was simply outstanding - a delightful surprise, a visual treat, and an exhilarating experience that left me with my mouth open

No One Will Save You (2023)

dir: brian duffield

No One Will Save You' is hands down one of the coolest horror movies I've caught in a minute. I usually steer clear of sci-fi horror 'cause CGI is always a letdown, but this one defied expectations. The suspense had me hooked throughout—watching her dodge and weave through tight spots kept my anxiety on overdrive. I'd definitely toss this one your way, especially if you want to watch a genuinely scary movie, maybe even on a trip—it'll mess with your mind.

Even though it kicked off a bit slow, everything clicked by the end, making the journey totally worthwhile. Major shoutout to the CGI—it's top-notch. By the way, seeing the actor only in 'Easy A' before, this was a solid comeback. I'm definitely gonna dive into more sci-fi horror after this one.

And can we talk about how this movie finally brought some fresh air to the horror scene? It's been years since a good one dropped, and 'No One Will Save You' genuinely scared me. thanks xoxo

Liyla-4-Ever

dir: lukas moodysson

This movie caught me completely off guard, evoking a range of emotions I didn't anticipate. Having "Lilya 4-Ever" as one of my favorites, I approached this film with a certain expectation, but it hit me on a whole different level.

I found myself in tears—everything about it was simply beautiful. The way each scene was meticulously filmed and the interactions between characters felt so authentic; it was like experiencing a dark chapter unfolding right before my eyes. What struck me most was the stark reality portrayed in the narrative—a reflection of people in other countries leaving their children behind in pursuit of a supposedly "better life" and subsequently forgetting about them.

It's a heartbreaking truth that often plays out in third-world countries, and the film captured it with raw authenticity. The depth of the storytelling left a lasting impact on me. Given this profound experience, I'm eager to explore more films by the director, Lukas, and share this particular gem with anyone seeking a powerful narrative about girlhood, one that explores the complexities of a downward spiral.

It's more than just a movie; it's a poignant reflection of harsh realities and the human condition.

Swarm (2023)

dor: donald glover

I just wanted to talk about "Swarm," Donald Glover's latest project. I mean, can we just take a minute to appreciate how versatile he is? The man can act, write, direct, and produce - what can't he do? and let's not forget about Dominique Fishback, she's a force to be reckoned with!

I was already a fan of hers from "Random Acts of Flyness," and seeing her in "Swarm" just solidified my admiration for her. She's talented, beautiful, and has a bright future ahead of her. But back to "Swarm," I loved how it was shot on a 35mm camera - it gave it such a raw and authentic feel. And the way he broke the fourth wall in the documentary episode? Genius.

Donald Glover is truly a master of his craft. Overall, "Swarm" was a masterpiece, and I'm so grateful to be able to witness Donald Glover's talent in real-time.

I can't wait to see what he and Dominique Fishback have in store for us next. Trust me, you don't want to miss it!

My Practice

I embrace a vast tapestry of occultism and spirituality. It is important to understand that my practice is not connected to one specific tradition, but instead combines various influences.

This diversity mirrors the heritage of my ancestors. Rooted in Afro-Caribbean traditions, my spellwork is inspired by ancient practices such as Obeah, Santeria, and Hoodoo.

I am a spiritual individual with a complex background in various cultural traditions. While the primary focus of my practice involves Obeah and Trinidad Orisha, these labels only provide a partial glimpse of my beliefs and practices.

I am willing to share some of my small spells and rituals, but I will not reveal the intricate details of my craft.

Janurary Rituals & Spells
17 January 2024 - Candle Ritual
Self Love - Candle Ritual
I did this ritual after i cleansed my house and had a bit of a discrepancy with my in-laws, these past few months have been very hard but witchcraft has been helping me keep a float.

This spell turned out amazing and the myrhh made the house smell so great. i took this candle dressing very seriously and took a lot of time in detail and adding all elements of importance for self love; here are 3 ingredients i used for self love
- lavender
- rose petals my partner bought me
- dandelion root

ended with a salt sweep and every month i cleanse out my money bowl. last month i accumulated an extra $300 from the money bowl
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Dark Moon Water
Ingredients:
- Jar and Lid
- Water
- Stick
- 1 Black Crystal
- Sterile lancet
1. on the dark moon night, fill the jar with water
2. go outside somewhere quiet ---> preferably crossroads
3. draw an x with a stick in the dirt
4. place jar in the center of the x envisioning dark energy
5. visualize a circle and draw it around jar; use the circle as a barrier for unwanted energy
6. drop stone into water and a drop of your on blood.
7. let it stay outside under dark moon and pick it up before the sun come up
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use this in spells, as protection, in bath rituals, anything!!!
December
19 december 2023

Orisha - Trinidad & Tobago

a form of worship from present day Nigeria that was brought to the new worlds by enslaved Africans. The tradition was assimilated primarily with catholism in order to ensure its survival

Artwork

Sketches & Drafts

Inspo

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3D Projects

Junji Ito "Tomie" - 3D Character & Scene
I created the project honestly spontaneously, Junji Ito is one of my biggest inspirations and i couldn't imagine my art journey without some kind of homage to him.

While venturing into 3D art, the challenge of transforming Junji Ito's characters and scenes into a three-dimensional reality captivated me. This process enabled me to appreciate his artistic mastery, understanding the beauty, surrealism, and subtle nuances found in his work.
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process
Small 3D Characters - Collection